One Sunday whilst I was pregnant with our first child, The
Architect and I were having a leisurely breakfast at Sassafrass (one of our
favourite breakfast haunts).
A couple walked past pushing a pram, but they were carrying the
baby. So just to be clear - the pram was empty. And I thought that was the
stupidest thing I had ever seen. I
remember looking at The Architect and scoffing “did you see that?” “WHY have a
friggin pram if you’re not going to put the bloody baby in it!” He thought the same. We both shook our heads at these crazy
people.
And then we had the baby. Oh God, we had the baby. Sometimes the baby didn’t want to be in the pram. Sometimes the baby just screamed and
cried, back-arched and dry-retched until I was obliged to pick it up and... what
do you know, I’m pushing a pram but carrying the baby!
Oh, how the mighty have fallen. Where’s your self-righteousness and judgment NOW lady? Huh? HUH? It was at the moment that it clicked. I had that ‘a-ha’ moment. That moment when you think to yourself
“OK. I get it now...”
I’ve had a lot of those moments since we entered the world
of parenting. Too many to count,
and no doubt there’ll be many more similar instances. The difference will be that I know now. I know that those parents (read:
warriors) who go before me (into battle) know more than me. They’re doing things for a reason. That reason is: it works. THIS works for us.
Like so much in life, it is so easy to sit in judgment when
you’re not in the situation. I got
so much free advice from well-meaning people who didn’t have children. And I wanted to just yell at each of
them “I’m doing it this way because it works for us!” There’s a little more clarity and understanding when you’re
actually in the thick of it and living it. Suddenly you have more empathy for those weary looking
parents struggling with their energetic offspring whilst going about their
daily lives.
I don’t recall this, but apparently I had made a comment to
my mother about not letting my children watch television. That thought alone sounds totally
preposterous to me and I can’t believe I ever said any such thing. But she is adamant. In which case it would appear that
I have done a complete about-face in the past few years as I let the kids watch
TV everyday. Gasp! I know, I know. I never thought I’d use the TV as an
electronic babysitter, but I do.
And I make no apologies for it.
They love it. Our whole
family kneels at the altar of ABC2.
The Architect and I can get a sleep-in on the weekend and we’re all
happy. So sue me.
Another example is grocery shopping. I could never understand how people
could continue to do their grocery shopping with a screaming child in the
trolley. I mean, how do you DO
that? Can’t you hear that? Whenever
I would witness these kinds of scenes, I could almost feel any semblance of
maternal feelings ooze out of my acrylic nails and drip onto the floor, full of
disdain. I was smug in the
knowledge that no kid of mine would ever behave like that! No, never.
I am cackling now with maniacal laughter and you know that
tears are just a tick-tock away.
My GOD how naïve could I be! Obviously that whole attitude has disappeared, along with my
acrylic nails. My weekly grocery
shop now involves Little Warrior standing (yes, standing) in the trolley seat
with his arms wrapped around my neck like an anaconda. Do you know how difficult it is to see
when someone is squashing his little face into yours? If I so much as hint
that I’m going to try to sit him down, he will squeal so loud that you would
think I’ve grabbed him by his almost two-year old gonads and yanked them back
into my handbag. All the while,
I’ve got my iPhone clutched in one hand, reading the shopping list, and trying
to steer the trolley with my wrists.
My WRISTS people! Seriously. Those things are hard enough to steer
with two hands! You get one dodgy
wheel and it’s all over.
Then there’s threatening them with something and giving
in. You know what I’m talking
about. I used to think I would be
the stoic and strong parent that laid down the rules and so shall they be! All too often I would see parents
threatening things that would never happen. Stop that yelling or you won’t get a lolly. I said stop. I mean it.
You’re still yelling but here’s a lolly. Judgey Me would scoff.
I knew what the problem was – you’ve got to stick with it! They won’t know you’re serious unless
you stick with the threat. My God
man, it’s basic Parenting 101.
Duh!!
What I didn’t realise was there’s a myriad of issues
surrounding the threat. Firstly,
don’t threaten something that you don’t actually want to happen. If you want to have a sleep today,
don’t threaten to take away the movie at lunch. Secondly, do you have the energy for this fight,
because trust me, however much energy you’ve got, they’ve got ten times that
amount. They seem to have energy
to burn. I thought I had a strong resolve. Clearly I didn’t know strong until I met my own
children. Like water
dripping on a rock, you get worn down and before you know it you’re unwrapping
that Chupa Chupp and smiling weakly at the young girl behind you in line with
the acrylic nails who’s staring disdainfully at you.
Don’t judge me.
One day this could be you.
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